ISSUE V

A Letter to [OLD GOD]

            I hope this letter finds you in [BLUE BOXER-BRIEFS] and [SOMEONE’S MEMORY]. I’ve been tending to my [BROKEN VERTEBRAE] ever since the day you gave me [CROQUET MALLETS]. My favorite [BLOTCH] is easily the [PITCH BLACK FISSURE] that grows right next to the [LACERATION]. Are you still working at the [FOOT OF THE THRONE]? I know you were lined up for a [QUICK JAB] that you really wanted. Personally, I’m doing [LIVING], walking through the [SEWER] to get some fresh [QUALIA]. I [SMEAR RED LIPSTICK] and [KISS SHIT], like we used to do. 

            I [OBLITERATE] you, and I [CONSUME VISCERA] sometimes because of it. I wish I could run my [PAPERCRAFT LEGS] through [THE WATERY NIGHT], look into your [VIRTUES], and tell you that [MY MOTHER] [FORGETS] you. I think back to our first [DAY ON THE JOB], when you [BREAKDANCED [YOUR] PANTS OFF] in the road and I had to [SMACK] you up[SIDE THE HEAD] before you got hurt. I think we got [TRASH IN] the [GUITAR CASE] right after.

            Do you remember when we went [DAYTIME STARGAZING]? We laid on the [PILE OF PALLETS] and stared at [EVERYTHING BUT EACH OTHER]. I found [INVASIVE SPECIES OF WEEVILS] and the [BLOWHOLES] they [BURGEONED] from but you couldn’t identify a single [MOTHERFUCKER]. Even with [A CHEF’S GUIDE] to [NEW JERSEY], you were lost. I brewed up some [CYANIDE] tea while you cooked [NOTHING]. 

            I’m sorry I never said [I’M SORRY I NEVER SAID [             ]]. I [SAID] [NEVER] but you wanted [YES] [NOW]. I know we needed some [THING] and I never [CEMENTED] the [GAP BETWEEN] my [DESIRE] and [MY SAFETY] that [HE KNIFED]. Maybe we just need one more [GRIPPING MY WAIST HAIR IN MY FACE] or something like that. I don’t know. I [DON’T KNOW] [I DON’T [YES]] [I ONLY [NO]] [I KNOW ONLY HIM] [[ONLY] HIM] [ONLY HIS] ex-boyfriend, but I still [REMEMBER EVERYTHING]. [[REMEMBER] THE CLEAVE OF HIS HANDS PARTING [ME] INTO THREE FLESHLESS STRIPS] [REMEMBER HIS GLOVES AND THE FRICTION OF LEATHER] [REMEMBER THE [TRIGONOMETRY] OF HIS [OPEN MIND] WHEN HE     [COMPRESSED ME]     INTO [A [SELFISH] MEMORY]]

            [[FLAG] AT 3/8THS MAST [[BLUETOOTH] [CLIFF-JUMPING]]] [I PULLED [THE ROPE] UNTIL MY HANDS SLICKED WITH [SWEAT]] [SWING ME AROUND LIKE A [COMPLETELY NORMAL] DOLL] [A CHASTE PLAYTHING] [SAME [BENCH] ON A [TRAIN BACK HOME] SO I’M FORCED TO [LOOK AT] EACH [HIM]] [I EMBRACED [EMBRACING HIM] LIKE  [IRREFUTABLE] PROOF OF [PROVIDENCE]] [ I WISH HE [CHASTE] ME ON THE BRIDGE AT NIGHT] [BUT HE [CHASED] ME IS THE [KIND] WAY OF SAYING IT] [IT’S WHAT HE] I
[        ] you. 

Sincerely,

[[OLD] [BLOW][HOLE]]